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Tuesday, 19 March 2013
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3/19/2013 11:25:00 pm
date : 19th March 2013 time : 2254hrs Assalamualaikum, Ya Allah.. life has started to be more challenging.. especially at work.. haiz.. and also what I'm facing at home and in my relationship.. I think I'm giving up and let nature takes its cause.. seriously.. Family issues: My dad is not getting any better.. Im not sure if he's getting worse.. or he remains the same.. I didn't talk to him much coz I'm disappointed with him.. there was one time I tried to bring him out but he doesnt want and complained that his knee was in pain.. he doesnt even make an effort to improve himself.. he just want to slack at home and watch TV.. he doesnt even pray now.. reason, knee pain.. I dont know.. mom keeps giving him motivation but if he says he's not doing it, he's not gonna do it.. besides my dad, there's not much of an issue.. mom's concern is just how to give my bros their school pocket money once they started school.. prolly I will have to step in and help with the household issues.. my dad is sick, now mom's in charge.. and I'm supposed to support my mom.. insya'Allah I will give my best.. Relationship issues: Me and my fiancee are doing fine but I just need her help sometimes.. financially.. as I've mentioned in the previous post, the least she can do is to help with the honeymoon trip.. and also we need both CPF contribution to pay the house.. I cannot be doing it alone.. haiz.. I tried to explain to her but she doesnt seem to understand.. she keeps procrastinating to get a job.. she doesnt want to improve herself and keeps blaming her mindset.. I'm very patient with her and still am.. if I keep pressuring, she will switch off and be her old self.. but the thing is, even if I talked to her nicely, she still procrastinate.. I donno how to motivate her.. I maybe her fiance in status, but Im not sure where I stand in her life.. haiz :( Work issues: Now is like more issues are popping up with the system.. every now and then there will be a call from a camp.. haiz.. especially Sembawang.. haiz.. irritating max! And now we have to do maintenance for Paya Lebar too.. we are not only doing maintenance, but also rectify all issues and they expect us to finish it very soon.. haiz.. and the one doing all these are just me and Nur.. Victor told me they're not employing more people.. ok, besides that we also need to develop 11 more systems.. and ALL FROM SCRATCH!! Now Victor wants to know the quantity of parts that is in the office.. MANA LAH AKU TAUUUUUU~ haiz.. why cant they just buy all the parts needed to develop all 11 systems?! Oooo Emmmm Jhaaaayyy~ And now we cant be efficient for our maintenance.. we travel from point to point by public.. kow! Aaaahh~ I donno lah... To be honest, I'm going through all these alone.. I have no one to share with.. my fiancee is supposedly to be my bestfriend but now she's also having problem.. I wish I have a better person to talk to.. but I dont think people will understand what Im going through.. maybe they will but only I can feel the load on my own shoulder.. but I know Allah wont give up on me.. that's why now I'm paying more attention to Allah more.. Oklah, I will end now.. Good nite~ time : 2328hrs |
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