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Wednesday, 2 February 2011
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2/02/2011 02:22:00 am
date : 2nd February 2011 time : 0229hrs Assalamualaikum~ Alhamdulillah that my dad's ok except that he has this sickness.. It's kinda personal to share it in my blog.. I'm farqinq worried about him.. he's getting older and weaker.. I feel like he needs his family to support him and I will contribute my part.. :)  I've been feeling down these few days.. I think it's caused by the lack of nicotine? Oh by the way, today marks one week of not smoking.. Alhamdulillah.. Rufi ever told me that my mood changes whenever I didn't get my daily dosage of nicotine.. Maybe she's right.. Or maybe I hate going out with her.. thats why I throw tantrum.. haha! Whatever reason it may be, I overcame it just now.. I think I've found the solution - to keep a positive mind.. I keep telling myself that I don't need cigarettes to satisfy my urge.. But when the cravings come, I divert my mind to someone.. Someone who is my source of motivation.. ;) And slowly that crave goes away.. cey~ Anyway, yesterday I met Ryna and she told me that never once she saw me cry.. My answer was, I tend not to get very emotional when I'm with my friends.. I never show the sensitive side of me.. Who they see is who they know about me - being goofey.. heh~ I will only get emotional when I'm alone, especially after prayers.. Sometimes I didn't even realise I teared up.. Well, it's only for a moment until I managed to control it.. Alhamdulillah I've someone to share my problems with.. but sometimes I'm scared that she might be busy and I'm adding extra "work loads" to her.. But I still shares with her lah whenever she's free.. :) Ryna is another friend whom I can talk to.. but whenever we talked about something serious, we'll end up laughing.. haha.. is it something we said or just our personalities..? Well, of course I have guy bestfriends but it's weird to get all emotional when I'm with them.. haha~ Whatever it is, I'm happy lah.. And I've found a new spot where I can relax my mind.. :)  I kinda like the song "Animals" by Neon Trees.. Or maybe I like the band coz they have a female drummer.. haha.. And I find female drummers so hot! Haha! These are a few bands that have a female drummer in them..  Neon Trees Elaine Bradley [DRUMMER!!!!] - Branden Campbell [Bassist, Vocals] - Tyler Glenn [Vocals] - Chris Allen [Guitar]  Skillet Jen Ledger [DRUMMER!!!] - Ben Kasica [Lead Guitarist] - John Cooper [Vocals, Bassist] - Korey Cooper [ Rhythm Guitarist] And I think the hottest drummer goes out to......................  Lux tours around with Rob Zombie Kay~ I end my entry here.. have a great day ahead.. CNY coming soon~ Long holidays! Yours GEREK-ly, ariffmohamed time : 0324hrs |
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