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Saturday, 12 February 2011
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2/12/2011 04:45:00 pm
date : 12 February 2011 time : 1646hrs Assalamualaikum~ Since yesterday, my heart felt like something's not right.. I donno if it's insecurity or sadness or.. I donno.. I donno how to put it in words.. I donno how to explain.. but what I know is that somehow my heart aches.. How do I share with people when I myself donno what it is.. Wait~ I think its gotta do with love.. maybe thats the reason why my heart is aching.. suddenly I feel scared.. very scared.. scared that I might get hurt again.. I should be moving on and leave the past behind but how can I move on when the "scars" are still there in my heart.. "SCARS".. Scars that only my eyes can see.. nobody can feel the pain that I'm feeling.. I may be laughing and joking on the outside but only Allah and myself knows what my true feelings are.. I'm a good liar.. a farqing good liar.. I managed to convince everyone that I'm ok but actual fact................. well, you know..  It seems that I have alot of people that I can talk to but somehow I still feel alone.. Alone by myself.. in my own world.. full of sadness overlaid by fake happiness.. What keeps me going, is my own strength.. my own confidence.. being my ownself.. making people happy, makes me happy.. I'm happy, sometimes.. sometimes mean not all the time.. Farq this emo shytz.. I'm going out to meet Kurt.. Your GEREK-ly, ariffmohamed time : 1707hrs |
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